Posted in Hope Alive, Hurt and Pain

Darkness In The Light.

Northern lights play,
A song of ice and fire,
The breeze, blows out our fires,
Im sipping latte from our riverbank
And i can’t help but remember,
How you held me,
As you bent to kiss my lips of red,
And your hands found,
Their way onto my waist
As you moved your head
And whispered in my ear
Nothing but promises
Telling me everything will be okay
Knowing how much of a wreck i am,
You made me smile after a long time
I thought it was eternal,
Only to realize,
That the winds whisper,
But disappear to the dunes,
i couldn’t hold on to you,
Cause you were fading,
And i was drifting,
Past the seasons,
And the scathes of the sun,
Just like the trees
swaying to the direction of their master
I tried following you,
To the ends of the earth,
But just like all that is not meant to be,
I had to let flee
And just hold on to the memories
Maybe someday I will forget,
Wounds heal sometimes,
And become beautiful scars,
I’ll still collect the shattered pieces,
From the floor,
Where we cuddled…
Just like ripping a band aid fast,
I hope i will forget all this memories that didn’t last,
I remember when my only craving was your scent,
And everytime in my list,
You were one of the heavenly sent,
You were my only angel in every angle of life,
But i guess,
That it really hurt,
When you fell from heaven,
Because now im at the river,
Where we had picnics from,
I tried to think,but i cant,
My demons are begging me,
To open my mouth,
I need them mechanically,
To make the words of pain,
And regret come out,
I knew i can’t swim,
But i jumped in,
And sank.


Posted in Hurt and Pain, To Love

Crossed Lines

I just wish you sent emissaries of truth,
Because my mind would be at peace with me,
I would have a nary a qualm,
And all these glasses would not be broken,
And all these tears would not be shed,
And now these words will never be taken,
And this day will never be forgotten!

I wish I got caught up a little at work today,
Because then you and your hoe would have finished business,
And i would be met by the smell of a fresh shower,
And the sound of sheets doing turns in the cleaner,
And the sight of sugar coated lies!

I wish I passed by _Kill me kwik_,
To kiss the bottle with the boys,
Watching the waitress sway her non-existent hips,
As we rant of all the greatnes around
Of the wonders of the green mamba on riparian
Than me coming here…
To witness your sacrilege on our matrimonial bed…
And me calling out to my gone ancestors.

Today I wished to be swept off by the floods
But it’s a sunny dry month
Today I wished to have been hit by a bus
And got dragged down it’s wheels along the tarmac
But again it’s a sleepy village here
Nothing that we wish for ever happens
Yet here I am…
Having to hear the pleasure moans you have him…
Those I always beg for each time I visit your downtown!

Now I’m wishing for more…
I wish for the rumble of an earthquake
For the earth to open up and swallow me whole
For a cactus plantation to grow upon my unmarked grave
At least with that…
The pieces of my shattered heart shall find peace
Than watching the wind blow these pieces away
The pieces you managed to make of my heart.


Posted in Belonging, Family, Friendship, Hurt and Pain, Loss and pain, On Death, On Life, To Love

For Rae Lyric…#SheOfTheSun

Words by her still longer…her image and voice will always linger and stay immortalised for time to come

The date that was…but she wouldn’t make it for the occasion..

Tributes shared…

Feelings laid bare…

A’ll that are clear,are our feelings through words for you…

End of an era it may be,but a new one sure has started and that will live for ever…

Let your ever radiant spark illuminate your path…

Thus at your absence we hold on to your presence that graced us …

The passion that was in for all of us…

The warmth and vigour experienced within your words and art…

We carry your light with us for all to see and back in…

A different path you take,

One away from us…

The steps you walked

The lives you touched

The smiles you shared

All that and more

Forever with us they’ll love

This may seem as an end

But still fill like a beginning

This sure ain’t goodbye …

This is a see you soon.

Shine on Rae…Shine on!!

Posted in Hurt and Pain


Like an injured wolf’s howl,
I’ll fade away…
Disappearing to my gracious grave
As I stagger into the shadows
Raising my palm,
Albeit higher above my head
With of my last of strength
In my shaking body
I shall look back one last time…
For a glimpse of my sad setting sun.

Upon this tight rope,
High up above the pit of pain,
Daily for you I walked…
Watching not to trip along it,
Despite the bets and dares for my fall!
At the end of my tether I am,
My knot tightening with every step,
A noose thus I hang on…
All that just for you.

Fighting no more to stay awake,
From my ever eluding sleep.
Despite sleeping with ’em lights on,
The nightmares still linger around,
The voices still get louder
And your face…
Your face still faces away from me!
Thus I sleep no more,
But I watch as I slip away!

You were my greatest tide,
Watching from the shore…
Seeing you arrive in full splendor
And as the tides turn back,
I no longer if it will return,
And with a greater hope for now,
I silently pray for its return…
To carry me with it….
To always be found at your feet.

Thus on my way I am…
Sit not and whimper at my resting place,
But let the love I gave you…
Sting back at you with its full fury.
Pretend not to be hopeless when the moonrises,
For with grear madness shall you be struck,
For all the thorns I endured…
Just to get you that wilted precious rose.

Born with the strength to rise I was,
But with the weakness to fall I learnt by you
In my starry night you were my moon,
But sooner I realized the moon too gets dark
And in my revered sense of self…
Emptiness hit me with its heaviness!
With my fragile and flawed self…
I let my sun set with my end.

Wishing upon the stars no more,
But yearning for the full moon more,
Despite the cloudy grey sky above,
I still see my kind of light…
The light that guides my path to nothingness…
Thus with this bit of last strength….
I howl and drop!


Posted in Hurt and Pain


Walk with me,

For alone I can’t.
Talk to me,

For the walls will never.
Dance with me,

For the rains shall dance on me.
Hold my hand,

As the cold shall freeze them at once.
Take me in your embrace,

For I wanna be in your presence.
Laugh with me,

Though the rest laugh at me.
But before then…
Can I call you?

‘Coz I know you may forget.
Should I pass by later on?

I’m free this afternoon.
I will have vanilla ice cream,

What’s your flavour?
We can even have a stroll,

Down by the grove where you love.
Carry your slip ons,

For in the river our feet shall tread.
I got my leso,

For us to lay on it as the sun sets.
Reality check…
My insanity is heightened,

At his feet I cower,

In his presence I stutter,

Time stands still,

I’m lost in him,

And yet…

All these he knows not,

For in my mind we are one,

In reality he is my one,


In his reality,

He has his one.

Posted in Hurt and Pain


My heart is in real turmoil ,

As I recall when I lay in the soil!
In the night lit by the moon,

One after the other on me-damn she goons!
With their red painted lips,

I felt them on me gyrate their hips.
Down to the ground I was pinned,

As my poor manhood was made to grind!
Too proud to tell it to the authorities

But not ashamed to tell it on paper!

Posted in Hurt and Pain


With tears in my eyes,

A fresh wound in my chest,

The hard lump in my throat,

Pains in me I tell you this,

Love,I decide to stay in my lane!
All this while I have lingered,

Hoping that your eye may see,

Or your heart may soften,

Or your ear hear my heart,

But hun,in my lane I stay.
My dreams each night you feature,

In my thoughts you daily dwell,

In my heart I have kept you,

But a cold shoulder you give,

So in my lane I stay.
I know you love another,

To her you are loyal to,

But still you show me bits of love,

Raising my hopes only to flush it down,

So I stay in my lane.
Your laugh that turns me on,

Your words that comfort me,

Your wildness that I cherished,

The you in you that I fell in love with,

The you that will never be mine,

So long my fantasy,I boldly draw my line.